starting from scratch

so here we are, a blog.

i have been against the idea of blogs since first the concept crossed my path. i am writing now against every fiber of my being.

my central disagreement with the whole idea of "blogging" is that you are inviting people into your thoughts, total strangers who will judge your ideas, your fears, everything...but you can't really get mad, because you asked them to attend the party/funeral in your head in the first place...& what makes people think ANYONE cares?? you are as much a stranger to me as i am to you

i could, in theory, ask people i know to become "members" to my head...but that is even WORSE than total strangers! i am going to have people inside my head & then i am supposed to eat dinner with them-after they just read that i dream of people's heads exploding when they are smacking potato chips?

no, not really.

so narcissistic...to think someone else wants to read the liner notes in my head...my mental ramblings or diy tips or advice on making the perfect pigs-in-a-blanket (which i don't have, btw)-clearly i don't have my shit together, or why else would i be seeking answers from a community of strangers?

we'll call this an experiment into the morose curiousity of blogging.

whatever.

let's see if the phenomenon catches on...if this becomes some kind of cyber therapy & i make an entire colony of happy-go-lucky dwarves & carnies-and we build a world of peaceful coexistence, filled with belly laughs & diy crafts, or if i end up deleting any existence of this experiment & cringing @ any future mentions of the word "blog".

bottoms up.